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Tuesday, September 12, 2006

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Hey this is one of my really old xanga's that i have found from when i was about 12 yrs old, which im now 15 i have another xanga thats moree recent, but i dont think im going to give it out. this xanga im pretty much going to write the truth about whats really going on, like intake, general things like that, i hope know one will judge me, because i am not a fake, i have a serious eating disorder and i have been in recovery for almost a year now, i dont want ppl to feel sorry for me, i just want support, and for ppl to reach out. I'm not better im not recovered and i dont plan on being, anytime soon.

     All summer i pretty much lost all control with my bulimia, i didnt gain any weight, which is good. But thats not how i wanted my summer to turn out. since im in my first year of highschool my goal was to be at my lowest weight which was 105 because once i hit 100 my parents are automatically sending me back into inpatient, so im here stuck around 112 115 and binging and purging uncontrollably, i need to stop, but i just cant, so i joined the chrismas 2007 challenge which starts on oct. 1st tht will help me get back on track, but for now im just wishing and hoping this terrible urge will go  away. my intake is jjust tooo long to even tell.. so i threw it all up and now taking lalxatives and positories, so i should be just okay.

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Wednesday, October 12, 2005

*If you are not thin you are not attractive.
*Being thin is more important than being healthy.
*You must buy clothes, cut your hair, take laxatives, starve yourself, do anything to make yourself look thinner.
*Thou shall not eat without feeling guilty.
*Thou shall not eat fattening foods without punishing oneself afterwards.
*Thou shall count calories and restrict intake accordingly.
*What the scale says is the most important thing.
*Losing weight is good/ Gaining weight is bad.
*You can never be too thin.                                                                                             *being thin and not eating are true signes power and success

 


Look in the mirror tell yourself you are fat.
Don't believe what others say about you.
Look at pictures of skinny girls daily and become like them.
Don't think or eat food at all. Food makes you fat. Any food makes you fat.
Drink as much water as you can. If you feel like you are going to exploid, drink more.
Go to the mall and try on clothes two sizes two small for you so you will be modivated to not eat and to fit into them.
Don't cry. All crying does is show you dont have self-control.

 

Thin is beauty; therefore I must be thin, and remain thin, If I wish to be loved. Food is my ultimate enemy. I may look, and I may smell, but I may not touch!

I must think about food every second of every minute of every hour of every day... and ways to avoid eating it.

I must weigh myself, first thing, every morning, and keep that number in mind throughout the remainder of that day. Should that number be greater than it was the day before, I must fast that entire day.

I shall not be tempted by the enemy (food), and I shall not give into temptation should it arise. Should I be in such a weakened state and I should cave, I will feel guilty and punish myself accordingly, for I have failed her.

I will be thin, at all costs. It is the most important thing; nothing else matters.

I will devote myself to Ana. She will be with me where ever I go, keeping me in line. No one else matters; she is the only one who cares about me and who understands me. I will honor Her and make Her proud.

 

151 to 200 -- It is likely that an intensive treatment program may be appropriate for your needs. Please consult with an admissions coordinator for further evaluation.

Because you answered 'yes' to two or more questions, the survey's authors suggest you may be at risk for an eating disorder -- anorexia or bulimia.

Yep! Simple and fashionable. If you have ever wondered if someone was anorexic, now all you have to look for is a red, beaded braclette. This will help us tell the world and eachother that we are proud of who we are. We are proud to be striving for perfection.


Monday, July 04, 2005